How Much I Needed Her
at night with my purple blanket
in the rocking chair
Lost at JC Penny
At a sleepover I wasn't ready for.
Once I snuck into the trunk of her car because I didn't want her to leave.
She was going to clean someone's house.
Santa Maria, California.
I hid under the back seat hoping to
She found me hours later sweating
in a tight spot. I could have died
just to be with her.
Sometimes, even now,
when I am sick
I hear a voice
way back at the end of a long hallway inside of me
tearfully saying "mom."